I am back: Catch up time

Hello everyone, I am back. I have been feeling a bit off this past week, I really needed time to figure out what was going on with me. Although finals were done, I felt like I was losing myself.

I took a trip to San Francisco. I went on 15th and decided to go for the weekend. The first day was great, we got there early, rented some bikes and biked down to the pier. The weather wasn’t too cold and we were heading to our airbnb. If you don’t know what an airbnb is, an airbnb is like a hotel but you can pick whether you want to rent out a shared space, room, apartment. It is a bit cheaper and many of the places are very convenient. So, it was our first time choosing an airbnb and we were so excited!

However, our stay was not as we expected. We stayed in a haunted airbnb. I do not want to tag who the owners were, they had hundreds of positive reviews pertaining their home, we did not want to seem like we had anything against them or anything. The details of it is still a bit hard to describe but it was an experience I will probably share in a future post.


Visiting Muir woods was extremely helpful, at least to me. Being surrounded by trees 100+ years old was incredible.

Anywho, I hope everyone has a beautiful week! I will also be feeling rather grateful for living and for a great health. Reminder to never forget the little things to be grateful and happy about.



Don’t stress, be patient!

I know it isn’t a surprise when I say that it has been a bad week. It is always a bad week. I have had a very difficult set of weeks for some reason. Most of it is because of academic reasons. I have been running back and forth from two different colleges, trying to enroll in another campus while attending another.

Paperwork after paperwork, advisement meetings, placement tests, priority registration, all to just not get into the class.

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I did ALL of that, just to not even get into the class because my registration date was two weeks after other students. I woke up feeling distraught for a moment. It was 3:30 am, and I told myself, “IT IS WAY TOO EARLY TO CRY” AHAHHAHA. Instead, I told focused on the positive and thought “maybe, just maybe it was meant to be?” “maybe I wasn’t meant to take this extremely necessary course?”


I found out there are many other colleges around my area (within 20 mi), that are not full yet. I am so so happy. This campus is straightforward, no paperwork, no meetings, no games. The reason why this class is a big deal is because if I don’t take it for the spring, then I am basically doomed and will extended my graduation another semester. I am so happy and proud of myself for not getting stressed out for nothing.

This is more of a happy rant, but I just wanted to remind y’all. If there is something extremely stressful going on in your life, take a breather. Relax. Things happen for a reason. Explore your options. If you don’t have options, explore future paths. Don’t let stress and negativity win. I wish you all a positive filled day!!

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image courtesy: paperwork- unknown, happy sun- clipartix,  rays of light- videoblocks

Why so much hate??

This past week, I was at work. I have very witty co-workers and they are very fun to work with. However, Friday was a different story. My co-worker, was in a weird, mean mood that day. He was full of energy and would not stop insulting anybody, literally. Anywho, our boss took us out for breakfast and we all ate together. My co-worker, Alec , was teasing my other co-worker who happens to be pregnant. He kept teasing her about her pregnancy, saying rude “funny” comments whenever he had the chance. She would say things back just to play it off but we all knew she was bothered.

Next, he turns to me and starts mocking me. He starts calling me really mean names and all for what? For the joy of it.

As the day progressed, he annoyed my co-worker to the max and she told on him. He got yelled at for being rude and was told to stop bugging people. As he walked by me, he began saying misogynist comments and started complaining about women. All I kept thinking was “wow, This man is full of so much hate!!” It amazes me how evil and so mean some people can really be. Why do people think it is okay to express so much hate? Why is it okay for people to normalize and pass these comments off as jokes??

I often wonder, what have this person gone through to be this hateful? Are they insecure so they hide behind the mask that shows them to be tough? Are they actually sensitive? Were they once hurt so bad? Do they think they’ll gain respect acting like that?

Reminder: please be kind. Be kind to people. Stop being mean, no one needs to hear lame insensitive “jokes”. Call out your friends/family if they are apart of this problem. I really wish there was a way to block out all the negative people but that’s impossible.


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Nausea Nausea Nausea

I have been suffering from nausea all day. It is finals week and I get bad test anxiety along with overwhelming stress. I tried to take care of myself but sometimes it is inevitable. I had to call out of work this morning because I only got three hours of sleep. I get up at 3:30am for work and I had fallen asleep at midnight (studying). I woke up to my head feeling dizzy and my stomach in swirls, and those swirls felt worse every time I thought about finals. I also took some medication that causes nausea so that could have contributed to it too.


Anyways, I had a bad day. Too many problems just dropped on my plate right before I take two important exams tomorrow. Amazing.

I have been trying to drink liquids and having a hopeful attitude about everything but it is so impossible. I tried drinking baking soda and that helped, but not for long. I drank tea, I drank liquids. I still feel awful. I have major emetophobia, which is the fear of throwing up. I will literally do anything in my power to avoid throwing up. I was on youtube, (procrastinating), and I was like “hmmmm, let me look up nausea”. I came across something insanely interesting.

Apparently, this video of beats and isochronic tones helped me feel a whole lot better, it was honestly magic.

This is the videos description :”* A binaural beat is an auditory illusion perceived when two different pure-tone sine waves, both with frequencies lower than 1500 Hz, with less than a 40 Hz difference between them, are presented to a listener dichotically (one through each ear). For example, if a 530 Hz pure tone is presented to a subject’s right ear, while a 520 Hz pure tone is presented to the subject’s left ear, the listener will perceive the auditory illusion of a third tone, in addition to the two pure-tones presented to each ear. The third sound is called a binaural beat, and in this example would have a perceived pitch correlating to a frequency of 10 Hz, that being the difference between the 530 Hz and 520 Hz pure tones presented to each ear.” –Osprey Music


If you are suffering from nausea and want to try something different, you should at least give this a try. It might or might not work for you but I can honestly say I feel so much better. 


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My RIDICULOUS Hot Cheetos Addiction (Really)

I have always been really healthy. I rarely got sick and never really suffered from the occasional cold or what not.

My diet is the only reason why I have ever been sick. When I was 14, I would eat loooadddssss of spicy food. I would also eat spicy chips such as Hot Cheetos and Takis and would add hot sauce on top of it! I know, I’m dumb.

Anywho, that caused me to get a small case of gastritis. Which basically meant my stomach lining was inflamed. I did not have an appetite, I was barely eating, and I felt nauseous every morning. I went to the hospital and they told me to lay off the spicy food and so I did, but I did not completely stop.

I realized, I wasn’t just “addicted” to the taste, I was becoming used to consuming a lot of sodium. Salt is not good for you. I learned that the hard way. These snacks were hard to get rid of, especially in my diet. As ridiculous as it sounds, I would reward myself to these chips whenever I had a bad day or if I wanted a cheat day which was basically every other day. I did not realize the association I was making between these unhealthy habits and my daily routines. I realized it was a problem once I kept thinking about eating these snacks after having a long day. I know it may seem like these snacks are harmless but they are really not good for you. Especially in the excessive loads I was consuming them in.


I get heart burn every time I eat anything with a decent amount of sodium. I feel my heart rate accelerating every time I consume greats amount of it. However, I have decided to change my habits!! I need to be nice to my body. I need to take better care of myself.  Especially because additional health problems have been appearing out of no where! I have cut back on my sodium intake. I actually joined the gym last week and that has been nice. I know it’s kind of funny because who knew you could be addicted to chips but honestly, you can be addicted to almost anything. I just wish I could have been addicted to my vegetables 😦 haha


My goals are to stay healthy and avoid fried foods as much as possible!! I also want to stay consistent with the gym and make better decisions.

My advice for anyone trying to make a change to make their lifestyles a bit healthier:

  6. CUT BACK ON SALT!!!!!


image courtesy: Hot Cheetos art from ppgxrrb-fan.deviantart.com

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Random adventures


I feel great. I feel well rested and happy. Last night, I took a little random adventure to the Getty Museum. I barely made it in time before closing time!! They closed at 5:30 but I arrived at the tram at 5:15! My friend needed to take pictures of the paintings to do his assignment on it. We literally ran up the stairs and into the museum. All the museum goers, exiting and staring at us weird because we were running inside trying to get our photos. Such a hilarious sight to be honest. We took our pictures and when the clock striked 5:30, we were asked to leave. Honestly, it was so much fun! We were out of breath but it felt like such a small mission completed. LA traffic was horrendous and it made a 20 min drive to the Getty, an hour drive! We honestly did not think we would make it but we did!!


I feel like I needed this little adventure. Finals week is coming up and I could feel myself stressing out and turning to my negative coping mechanisms. Anywho, I hope I am able to conquer this week without having any harm to my mental health.

Nature’s Warmth

We really don’t appreciate Earth as much as we should. We are so wrapped up in our worlds, filled of joy, problems, chaos, stress, etc. We do not really stop and appreciate the beauty that Earth and Mother Nature offers us every day. As simple as the beautiful clear skies, to their amazing cotton candy sunsets.


Honestly, sunsets are truly the most beautiful sight one can see. Whether you are having a bad day or a good day, sunsets always seem to give me warmth.

I used to walk home from school everyday as a teen. I started to acknowledge nature more and how it surrounds me. I loved windy days. I felt like nature was speaking to me. I love seeing wind brush up against trees. The movement in the leaves spoke to me. The way they would move with the wind, almost as if they were waving at me. Such a beautiful sight when we see it in different perspectives.



Daily Reminder: if you’re on a walk, or a drive, look at your surroundings! Appreciate the beauty that surrounds us all.

image courtesy: (blowing tree) unknown artist